I'm a big giant hypocrite...maybe

Okay, I have to be fair and tell the truth. I'm encouraging everyone to participate in NaNoWriMo (see yesterday's blog). But I'm still trying to make up my mind whether it's something I'm going to do. I'll still write during November, definitely, but whether I'll actually sign up for NaNoWriMo is what I'm wrestling with. See, I'm not sure that I'm one of those people who functions well under pressure. I get writing done, usually, because I've forced myself to sit down every day and do it. Sometimes I get a page, sometimes I get a paragraph, sometimes on a really good Saturday or Sunday I get more like seven pages, yea!!! But part of the reason I can do that is I tell myself that there are no expectations for sitting down in that chair, although I have a goal of at least (!) one page a day on weekdays before work. So, I'm worried that if I put the expectation of 1,500 or so words a day on my shoulders, I'll work myself into a tizzy stressing over it. On other hand, I think I sometimes lose a lot of time because I allow myself to digress or worry about what's already been written instead of moving forward and making progress, which is what NaNoWriMo is all about.

Plus, and I know this sounds stupid, if I get all freaked out and frustrated because I can't meet the deadline (I am so a Type A, if there's a deadline, I MUST meet it. Except when it comes to being anywhere on time. That I can never do as many of you will testify), I won't be able to enjoy writing. Enjoying it, even when it's hard work, is essential for me. I'm thinking of all those college papers that I had to write on deadline and hated them intensely while I was writing them.

So, while I still think NaNoWriMo is an excellent event, especially for those who need a kick in the pants *grin* to start writing or keep writing, I'm not sure I'm going to do it. I'm still thinking about it...

Okay, whew, now that I've got that off my chest...complete and bizarre conversation change. How about that show Lost? Best hour on television in my opinion. Fabulous character development, intriguing backstory. It's one of the few shows where I'm actively wishing for more at the end. I wish they'd put television shows out like they do DVDs, all the episodes at once, so you can watch them all when you have time or want to. This week to week thing is killing me.

Also, Veronica Mars? Close second to Lost for best new show. If you haven't seen it, you are truly missing out. Again, excellent character development. I heard that Veronica was originally developed as a character for a novel, which helps explain some of her depth. If that's the case, then all tv characters should be book characters first!!!

Okay, I'm done now. : )

Talk to you tomorrow!